Never knew I still have to blog when I am so in love with this man of mine. I never guessed that because of a single NO, he would take this hard. It was never meant to be a rejection, it was just meaning is not the time yet.

This guy I met is my only true love that I am so lucky to find him. He is like my best buddy, a bodyguard, and always there to make me smile, although sometimes, publicly, those funny faces is kinda weird for others. But i truly know that i am blessed to have him. He is the ideal man for all my girlfriends around me.

Perhaps, I was taking everything for granted. And him, not replying me was devastating.

I dint want to do it because it is against my beliefs and I am scared I will lose control over it. Plus, all i need was rest and quality time with him. Is not because I'm not fully attach with him. I am. But I cannot go over my beliefs. I want everything we do have a meaning to it.

I have no one to share and no one to discuss. He is indeed a man with a strong opinion. Just at times, I hope he can accept "no" as a positive reply, and not a negative one.

It hurts. It really hurts. Who hears me here?