Surrender

Today, I just want to thank my parents for giving me a book entitled : The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren.

This book has amazing effect on me. It always attend the problem Im facing.

Everytime I face different obstacles and even fear, this book give me all the hints the purpose of life, how to handle the recent problems and how to face it.

Today, I started the day with a very heavy loaded heart. I just cant understand why. Thinking of family, friendship, love, studies, responsibility, uncertain future, and my own desire, life seemed so grey. So grey, that I almost breakdown once again.

Felt so lonely. Felt so alone. Lost my path. Lost myself.

Then, I thought of this book. It has been long time since I opened this book. And again... today, the book speaks to me again.

Today is about surrender. People often thinks that SURRENDER is a negative word, but however, this is the most powerful word in a person. How much do you have to give up to surrender to something or someone?

Once, William Booth quoted that: the greatness of a man's power is in the measure of his surrender. It takes so much for a person to surrender which includes the 3 main things of life - Trust, Pride and Fear. Surrender simply affects all these 3 things.

Today, I realised, there are something that I have to give in to a Particular Someone, Someone Mighty and Someone that Never given me Up, My Father, The Everlasting God. There is nothing He cant do. His power wins everything in this material world.

I realised, all these while, I have taken someone else as my idol. No one likes to be substituted, so as Him. I realised, all these while Im TOO self-oriented. I wanted things to go my way. I want it on the spot and I want eveything to happen according to my plan. I knew Ive changed to be greedy and too anxious. I put God aside long enough. I have made a mistake.

Listening to the song You are the Music in Me and also Bad Day, I just felt so light now. Ok... Doesnt mean there's a light shinning on meor Im floating or I'm glowing, but I just hope, the agreement that Ive made today with God, I realised, where am I now. And I know where and what I should be doing. And of course, Im just an ordinary human that needed to be reminded everyday about this contract with God.

Surrender to God is not the best way to live, but it is the only way.

I just hope the glow will continue to stay on my face as well as heart and in everyone that I care and love so much!