Bunga Dedap?

Alalala...

For 3 weeks, ive been sleeping late and slacking. Some frens have finish their very 1st portfolio, working towards the next one, while, im doing nothing except relaxing and trying to figure out where have my time all gone?

Was i spending too much time on organising things? But i do love to do all those organising things. I never regreted offering such help although sometime, my team members might not be agreeing with me. I never even the slightest disappointment with anyone along the way. Maybe because i was trained to do so during my older school days.

ummm... dunno le. I just find it fun to do something that tires me physically and not mentally.

There is good and bad of having such packed schedule this sem. With all those datelines to meet as well as commitment made on certain activities, together with my ego, i ended up reducing my sleeping time, less time to chat with frens that i used to be so close.

I just felt so tired.

Anyhow, the good thing is, I start to move on, while keeping the good memories of older days instead of dwelling with the bad ones. However, when i knew I couldnt make it to the 2nd round of E-strat, a sudden sadness strike me.

E-strat, is something that i wish I can qualify to the next stage. However, because of all the activities as well as responsibilities that I have to deal with, i neglected my own interest which is to put my 100% effort in playing E-strat.

E-strat meant alot to me especially this year. When i knew I couldnt make it, i start to think, maybe I am really stupid. Was bunga dedap is the best phrase to describe me? Or maybe, it is another way that God open for me to let go Archie evantually.

I am in a blurr condition while blogging now. Mind is just blank. Too much things to be handled at a time. New apartment rentals. Chinese New Year. The progress of my best buddy. studies. Anticipated Sabah trip. electives. my family matters. my own health.

I just dunno what im crapping now. I should be in a presentation mode now for tmr's PBL meeting. Yet, i choose to ignore.

And yea.. to all my frens that are reading this. Im sorry. I know I have been cranky at times. I have been pushing at times as well as being unhelpful and unfriendly.Im terribly sorry for my fault. And dont hesitate to tell me how can i make up to you guys.

Have a happy chinese new year. And yea... no time to get myself new clothes this year :P