No one will understand.

People see that im successful, earning lots, having lots of friends around and happily being posted at my hometown. But many of them really felt what i felt?

Never felt so lost. Never felt so rebellious. And i regreted the decision made a few months back. I have to admit, i asked for a retention because of him. But what happen in the end? I just felt im being used. Somehow, he did not realised it. And again, i realised, i was trying to be someone he might like. And in the end, i got hurt again, and putting a strong firm and happy face.

It really kills me. The feeling can never subside and no talkings can help to mend this feeling, except me leaving. How can i leave this place? I hate to say it, but im starting to hate it already...