Frust and desperate

Alala... my mood have been really eating me up! From 3 meals a day, im down to 1 meal a day. I almost wanna go sleeping with empty stomach.

Then, cant sleep as well. The mind is still stuck with the problem with you-know-who. Again and again remind myself in all sorts of manner, good ones and harsh ones, yet, nothing helps.

I really dunno what should i do. No idea at all.. Im blank

I just want to know his whereabouts now, that's all. Issit too much?

Phone not on for the whole week already and sudden silence really is a sign of bad thing would happen. Why happen now? Why just dont tell me direct to face so that i wont think more... Why Why Why?

Oh God.. I really pray. Hope everything really runs off well..