Waking up at this hour....

Waking up at this hour when im blogging now, is just not a very good time... You wanted so much to crawl back into your blanket under your full speed fan or aircon, but you just cant... Just torturing enough.. But yet, Ive to get up to settle what have happened in my life recently.

Clock just wont stop ticking for me. Been rushing for datelines, datelines and datelines. Ive to go through all my mood of stopping down, my desire to slack and also my will to take things more slowly. Because of this... I again, felt very lost. But this time, I really dunno whom I wanna turn to.

My jimuis, all of them are attached to so much things happened in their life that I dont wanna be their burden anymore. Some have move on to the next stage of life, some are just like me, trying to be a tough cookie, trying hard to be strong in front of others. I just cant bear to add more things to their perfect life, or even worse, to those who's life is just not as perfect as it can be.

Did wanted to turn to my cousemates. But yet, they are just as busy as I do. Why do I have to load them with my own feelings? Something not very encouraging to make them move through their difficulties as well. Besides, I guess guys and girls cant really be good friends? Opposite sex good friends, that i once was close to, start to withdraw from me. For me is ok, as long as they felt comfortable. Yet, i feel its kinda wasted losing someone as dear as normal good friends, that would just stand beside you, getting you through life, but it just wont happen as im a girl, and they are guys.. What i thought previously was wrong then. It shouldnt be applied here in KL that guys and girls can be friends.

Now.. this is where i felt lost. dunno where to turn, dunno where to go, aimless....

And that's when i started missing Archie, thinking of times when he used to stand beside me to get me through and also the time, when he started to drift away... and this makes me cry..

And she just did it again...

She again drop her tears in public, by holding back her cries...

She just sent her k-bro to KL sentral, and eventually, sent him to bus that transport him to LCCT.

When she was about to leave KL sentral, she again, saw the spot where she and Archie was there a year ago.

She just couldnt stop her feelings being drown away. She just couldnt stop the feeling of not thinking about Archie. She knew there is nothing, nothing at all, she can do now and is already a dead end between her and Archie, she tried to move on, she tried to be strong, she tried to fill her time with loads of work, by taking all the responsibilities to herself, she aclaimed that she has moved on to TT, she thought she had moved on..

Or maybe she really did move on? It was just the bad memory between her and Archie that made her tears fell? She just dunno...

She again, felt all lost. She is all alone in this time of critical..

Is this gonna be temporary or will it just be in her mind forever? She also dunno, yet she keep waiting and trying...

I want my TIME!!!!

Currently have been busy, organising activities for my convo mag, dealing with ammendments for my KK trip with a bunch of friends, class tests, Mt KK climb training, projects, endless datelines to be met.

Yet, I do still find a time to watch Jack Neo's movie - Love matters.

I can say that i LOVE Jack's movie. Because i found it very down to earth. And bet ya, i even cried when i watch this movie, because i reflected on my life as well as life of people that I care around me.

I know how big the word LOVE is. Yet, i still couldnt find it in my notes. But i do found it around people around me. Friends getting flirted, court as well as starting new relationship. Erm... JEalous? Not really, is just that maybe I should be thinking at the more positive site, where is always better not to be in loved just for the sake of being into one.

Today, i passed by the place where Archie and I was there, happily smiling almost a year ago. I couldnt say that Im not disturbed. A sudden sadness just strike me, went into a world of my own, where I wasnt aware that there's a motocyclist that had a small accident, just beside the car I was in.

I went home, and then, chatted with TT as well as a few pals on the activity that we are going to organise in this month. yes... datelines again.. Yet, i felt like blogging. I want to continue to blog about my Aussie trip [which I will do it this week :) ] as well as having a facebook account [due to high demand].

Again, i told TT about how i felt today, about the incident where i went back to the place which i think i wouldnt be there for as long as i can remember that place... TT pop another question to me: Are you still avoiding guys or you have recovered? Followed by jokes by TT. If TT have asked me the question seriously, frankly, I dunno the answer... *haha* funny right?

I admit, i was avoiding being close to guys, or even not talking to one, if i can do it before this sem, because i felt betraying Archie, but now, I just realised, I wasnt being myself when I was being with Archie...

Well, I know this blog shouldnt be of Archie anymore, yet, he had been part of it. And in future, I dunno whether will he be part of it, but, again, i remind myself that, is time, to live like what ET have lived... Being herself is what makes her smile...

Ganbate ET!

I am disturbed..

I shouold be blogging about my Aussie trip, my chinese new year, my new year, my fren's birthday, those happy moments.. but yet, here am I again, grieving..

Grieving is a strong word and yeah... disturbed.

I know I shouldnt be troubled by anything now. I thought I was stronger. yet, im still weak. Still unable to stand up.

I was encouraging a friend to be strong as well, and TT seemed accepting my advice well.

Yet, i know... I can advice ppl, yet, at times, i just couldnt held my feelings for being disturbed..

Only a sight of Archie is online in MSN, and ta-da... Disturbed.

God... I am only praying for faith and courage now. I know I shouldnt be disturbed and I should have been trusting God more. Please be with me until I clearly understood your love for me.

TT told me that is unfair to people who have feelings for me at this moment cos I cant stop them from having feelings for me, yet, im pretty sure..Im not ready yet.

God, help me please. Let me see your light and let me take the steps you ready for me.

Please God, help me not to disappoint people that I care and people that cares for me..

People say...

There are 2 remarks from people i get nowadays:

1. I never thought you can be so fun. To play as well to chat.
2. When are you getting married?

The first remark, i would say, maybe this is the real me. Like ive said, ive been hiding as well as monopoly myself with other bad stuff that i shouldnt be worry of.

Im so so so glad that i regain myself, though at times, i will still be reminded of bad and sad things that happened in my life. But what im seeing more is, the brighter side of it. Im trusting that God takes control.

I realised that I was being not myself for pass few years. And i was proud and told myself, I dont need God. God is only there for eternal life, and God have no impact on my real life. But, in the end, I have to agree that i made a mistake, a mistake that i hope i will never make again.

This cny when i went back, to be true, yes, there is a itch of feeling uneasy as there is where sweet and bitter happens. And i realised, im refraining from my own old friends. I dunno why. But yet, i dunno whether ive changed or actually, we really lost some conversation. I guess, the timing wasnt right. My mood wasnt there to talk, because they reminded me of how stupid i was not to keep in touch with them. And yea... they do reminded me of Archie, cos all of them knew who Archie was.

But i promise, no matter how i may change, friendship, for me, once made, it will prolong as long as i still breathing. Except it was the other party, giving up the relationship.

Ji Muis, buddies, pals.. im so glad that you all have helped me through all the toils and tribulations. I cant promise that i have moved on, yet one thing im sure is that, im better edi.

And for the 2nd remark, people just dont believe im single. What's wrong having a nice face and remain single and attractive? Ahem!

Haiya... i dont mind to collect more angpou until I cant or not longer eligible to receive edi. I wont search, i wont target but I will wait, if only if there is that day.

Im sure u all will be notify and get the red bomb if there is such day.. Keep waiting friends. And for friends that have married, please... angpou bigger. Economy reccession. Good luck too, cos i will still hunt u guys for MY angpou :wink ( ATTENTION to BABY. Please note the 2 last senteces)

Bunga Dedap?

Alalala...

For 3 weeks, ive been sleeping late and slacking. Some frens have finish their very 1st portfolio, working towards the next one, while, im doing nothing except relaxing and trying to figure out where have my time all gone?

Was i spending too much time on organising things? But i do love to do all those organising things. I never regreted offering such help although sometime, my team members might not be agreeing with me. I never even the slightest disappointment with anyone along the way. Maybe because i was trained to do so during my older school days.

ummm... dunno le. I just find it fun to do something that tires me physically and not mentally.

There is good and bad of having such packed schedule this sem. With all those datelines to meet as well as commitment made on certain activities, together with my ego, i ended up reducing my sleeping time, less time to chat with frens that i used to be so close.

I just felt so tired.

Anyhow, the good thing is, I start to move on, while keeping the good memories of older days instead of dwelling with the bad ones. However, when i knew I couldnt make it to the 2nd round of E-strat, a sudden sadness strike me.

E-strat, is something that i wish I can qualify to the next stage. However, because of all the activities as well as responsibilities that I have to deal with, i neglected my own interest which is to put my 100% effort in playing E-strat.

E-strat meant alot to me especially this year. When i knew I couldnt make it, i start to think, maybe I am really stupid. Was bunga dedap is the best phrase to describe me? Or maybe, it is another way that God open for me to let go Archie evantually.

I am in a blurr condition while blogging now. Mind is just blank. Too much things to be handled at a time. New apartment rentals. Chinese New Year. The progress of my best buddy. studies. Anticipated Sabah trip. electives. my family matters. my own health.

I just dunno what im crapping now. I should be in a presentation mode now for tmr's PBL meeting. Yet, i choose to ignore.

And yea.. to all my frens that are reading this. Im sorry. I know I have been cranky at times. I have been pushing at times as well as being unhelpful and unfriendly.Im terribly sorry for my fault. And dont hesitate to tell me how can i make up to you guys.

Have a happy chinese new year. And yea... no time to get myself new clothes this year :P

2009 resolution

Yeap.. Im late to blog bout my new year resolutions. However, it wont be much resolution cos they say whatever is listed in your new year resolution list, you will never be able to achieve it.

Well, before i continue blogging about my AUS trip, i might as well list 10 things I want to forget for year 2008.

1. Bad studies results.

2. Lose my confidence.

3. A bad quarrel with my ji mui.

4. Upgrading my blog slowly.

5. Never enjoy my uni life.

6. Dint have enough sleep that cost my face!

7. Spending not enough time doing what I love.

8. Failed to learn Canon in D by heart.

9. Close myself up.

10. Bad memories in June.

10 unwanted memories in 2008. Bidding goodbye to them.

Hope that year 2009 will be a better me!

Ill update my aus trip blog sooner. Now, struggling with my new uni life. New apartment. Homework. Tutorials. Ever boring lectures and baking/cooking!

Gold Coast

This blog is about some other thing about Gold Coast.

In Gold Coast, we stay in Ocean Blue Motel. It was a rocky start at the very beginning. After being flown to sydney before going to Gold coast, we were were transfered from Perth to Adelaide, to Brisband before taking a bus to Gold Coast. The worst thing, is that, we reach Gold coast 2 hours later than the time that we should have reached.

Anyhow, the motel, was quite a delight after a long tiring journey.

The enterance of the motel

Just outside my room. Not a bad view. In the morning, forget having your breakfast there. But at night, a bottle of wine would be nice.

And the best thing is, the beach is just 10 mins walk from my room! The beach is really superb! The sand, the water and even the wind, is so so so so so captivating.

A view of the beach. I know is a cacat picture cos the sun was glaring. Couldnt see what ive taken.

A closer beach view

3 stooges. Never seen such a beautiful beach before.

Just woke up on the last day at Gold Coast. And this is the face of a blurr blurr girl trying to smile in front of a camera. Spoil the scene, i know.

Me, getting souvenir that i promised Terrorist - Sand of Gold coast. ET Siau edi, touching those soft sand.

This beach belongs to the name written above.

This is the picture taken at the beach at night. note all those small particles. That shows how fine the sand is and imagine those fine substance inhaled. Where do they go? You couldnt have notice this in the day.

Polar Bear, Louie and ET in the garden of the motel. The dog is a lousy dog. It loves everyone. Cant help much in scaring or frightening ppl away.

This one scares ET. Cos is so huge and ugly. Found somewhere near Ocean Blue Motel.

The place where it sells the best ABC in Australia. Yeah right... Have a guess what it is.

Basically, that's all from the motel and the surrounding of motel. These are the view taken from the city of Gold Coast, Surfers Paradise.

Night view of part of surfers paradise

This road belongs to my grandfather. So enjoy taking the pics right in the middle of the road!

Billabong. You guys know better what it is.

Louis Vuitton.

ET amazed with the balls displayed, not the bag or the shoe of LV! Retard betulllll...

Basically, I think the only attraction of gold coast is its theme parks. The city is very small. And to be frank, the night life there, uiiiiisehhhhhhhh... everyone party everynight until dawn. Clubs were found in any corner, any block of the city. and ET learns how to differentiate a club with strippers and those without them.

But what caught ET eye's was:

A wombat hat. Too expensive lar. If its a rabbit, Ill sure take it cos always dreamt of putting a real rabbit on my head and take a picture. For the time being, put a dead wombat 1st lar... Duhhh...

Gold Coast - Dracula's and The Wax Musuem

Since I might not gonna blog tomorrow and have to keep some of my ji mui close their mouth, I decide to blog another one about gold coast.

This is place where I and polar bear dint went it. From the outside, it looks like a haunted house. But, instead to go into this place, you have to prebook and it cost $100++ per person for a 3 course meal. From the map they gave to Octopy, Mr L.U.I and Sukiboys, it will be an awesome place for people that fancy vampire, ghost and even supernatural thingy. They even have a roller coaster inside, to bring you to the eating place. And during the meal, there are performances, magic show and lotsa presentations to keep you amused for 4 hours. They serve their apetizer in a form of a skull, and the desert was the chocolate mouse, shaped like a coffin. Their drink stirer are skull chopsticks. According to Sukiboys, only the meal worth the money. I bet this will be an ideal place for May as well. Too bad, she cant join them. For me and polar bear, we dont pay for something we dont like or scare ourselves.

From the book Sukiboys took as a souvenir, I bet the owner of this place earns alot. They also own another 5 storey haunted house, located in the city of Gold Coast. Once you have paid, they will send you to the top of the 5 storey shop in a lift that is so dark, that you cant see your partner inside the lift. Then.. You have to find your own way to go out from the haunted maze. Different storey have different theme. I cant remember all. But I remember there are the phobia storey, the future storey, the zombie storey, and other 2 storey. Believe me, you just need to have the guts. There will be thingy popping up and say hello to you and you'll be frightened by your own image. Sukiboys and Octopy only managed to walk through 2 storey and they escape using the emergency exit. They are not allowed to take any pics inside Dracula or the haunted house. So, sorry guys. But i can let you have a look at the urshers of Dracula's.

Octopy, the ursher and another not-so-gothic-and scary ursher. keke...

Wax museum is the only place Polar bear wanted to go. So, with high hopes and expectation, we went to Gold Coast Wax Museum. So, have a guess who are the wax dolls are: Answers are below.

No.1

No.2. If you know him, you are as brilliant as he is. I can guess, can you?

No.3. Looks familiar? Look into your mirror now!

No.4

No.5. Hint: He was wearing an adult diapers in the display

No. 6 (Yellow man) No.7 (Black man)

No.8. Use your brain. Use your brain!

No.9. Kinda easy.

No.10. If you cant get this right, balik kampung, tanam jagung, makan kangkung dan minum Bandung.

No.11. If you dont know this, please see your optometrist IMMEDIATELY! Or see a pharmacist!

Answers:

1. Kylie Minoque 2. Albert Einstein 3. Moa Tze Tung 4. Prince Charles 5. Matma Ghandi 6. Elvis Presley 7. Michael Jackson 8. Abraham Lincoln 9. William Shakespear 10. Baa Baa Black Wolf

If you get:

1-3 Correct = Either your brain or eyes got problem. Please check them ASAP. Or was the wax creature so badly done?

4-7 Correct = Erm.. Okai lar.. U passed.

7-10 Correct = Either your eyes or brain got problem. You are above the normal people. Please confirm with your doctor.

Seriously, is not as nice as we expected. We thought it would be as nice as the Hongkee's. But nevermind, HK, our next destination :wink

White Water World - Get Drenched!

Merry Christmas everyone! This christmas is one of the best despite news that I dont want to hear. So, i choose to choose things I want to know and things I dont.

Why do i say is a better christmas if compared to last year? Marchy called me from UK. YOHOOOOOOO!!!! From UK, mind you. Although I have to chat in the middle of the night in a typical KK house toilet, but is all worth it knowing that she is alright, still in a piece.

And moreover, got lotsa msges from people I never expect they'll text me. Like my Form 6 teachers and friends.

These little things make my days brighter, guys and thanks so much.

However, I pretty determined to post some more of my vacation pics. I wanted to post some christmas trees that I took since its christmas, but I dint bring my phone's adapter, and those pics are in my phone. Too bad. I can only show you some of Australia Christmas tree then.

Perth Airport

Gold Coast Airport

Sydney Airport

On our way to Sydney Opera House, a Golden Christmas Tree

Sydney City

A christmas tree Hat, Sydney. Thanks to Sukiboys.

Adelaide Airport

Melbourne observation Deck

Melbourne City, near Melbourne Aquarium

Last but not least:

1Borneo, Sabah. :) Pretty tree too huh?

Ok... Back to topic. The White Water World. That's our 3rd and last theme park in Gold Coast. This is the newest theme park and be prepared, ull get drenched. I reassure you that you wont come out dry in any of its rides.

However, this park only offers 7 rides, in which 3 are water playgrounds.

We go for the rides 1st, of course. And this is our 1st ride:

Is called the green tunnel. 4 person per ride. And you just sit on top of the pelampung and be ready, you'll be dropped in a tunnel and into a funnel. Damn Syok.

This ride is like the ones you saw the people playing in The Roller Coaster Tycoon Games. Is exactly the same! Only difference is that, this is a long long ride.

This is the overview of both rides. Sure get drenched de.. But is damn fun getting wet. And the long queues are worth waiting!

This is the octopus ride. This is where you use the surf board they provided for you, and slide all the way down the tentacles of the octopus. I wonder how Octopy felt when sliding down its own species.. hmm.. The purple trail beside it (if you can see) is actually another ride, which I cant snap a picture of it cos my camera was with Sukiboys to avoid it being wet. Is where you sit on pelampung as well in a group of 4 or less, and swirled down into a "black hole". It depends on gravity.

A mini beach. This beach is somesort like the one in Sunway, where they will have waves. And they have surfing classes here. U can see me jumping cos the sand almost roasted my pig leg.

Nikoledon Pool. This is a huge water playground. Where people will try their way up tothe highest slide, if they can as people along the way, will try to stop you using strong water pipes. They will splashed you like as if they know you. They wont bei min lei.. They Shoot and Spray like they never did it before!

Noted the Nikoledon pail under the Sponge Bob? This is what will happen at any time:

Be Prepared. Or else: You'll end up like:

this (ET was well prepared)

Or this:

ET being betrayed by Sukiboys. Not prepared at all..

ET retard moment. Never seen water fountain before meh? Not in Bikini? Yes.. Wahaha.. Why? Still waiting for a sponsor to get me one nice one. :wink

Map for White water world (right) and DreamWorld (left). Get dry in DreamWorld but soaked in White WaterWorld. Huge theme parks..

A small overview of White Water World, taken while in the line to play Green Tunnel.

A picture taken while in the line to play the orange boat. A huge bird nest. No wonder they say Australians loves animal. They preserved them so well. QC or Preservation?

My breakfast. Water? Frankly, the park provide you sufficient water for you to drink while you were on their rides.

White Water World Main Enterance

Dream World, the DRY park just beside the wet one. Dint go in cos of economy constrain. For more info on this park, please take the initiative to google it. Believe me.. From outside, im pretty sure, I dont want to get on on any rides inside DreamWorld. I guess all of them rated at least 7 stars compared to Movie World's rides. ET pa pa er...