The last night...

This is the last night ill be spending my days in my hometown, a place where it reminds me of love, strength, loyalty and also hurt.

This homecoming was indeed unforgetable. Why? Because of him...
Prayers answered. Wish half fulfilled and secretly another wish is planted.

1 Malaysia. That was the place. 14 November 2009. That was the date. 7pm. That was the time. Nicolesukiboys and Octopy. That were the people.

Is the 2nd time I met him after saw him at the opposite road once I touched down from plane.

After the first time meeting him, I texted plar bear. I told her my second wish, to see him face to face, and talk to him.

Wish granted. I was so excited seeing those food serve on that night. Buffet steamboat, with chocolate founduer, your self make ABC, lots of dadih. Great people to eat with. Just that it was too heaty in that fully-cramped air-con restaurant. And there he was, with his colleague.

Adrenaline rush all filled me up. My hunger lost. My appetite lost. And i end up not eating up as much as I have paid. Nicolesukiboys say that he might have see me cos he is just a table beside the table behind me. I was in a dilemma that should I actually say Hi. And of course, i turned down Nicolesukiboys and Octopy for their offer to get my food (yeah.... my wish came true. Why shouldnt I grab it?)

Went to get some food. Passed by his table. He dint looked up too. But we then bumped into each other when he also got up to take some food. Taken the initiative to say Hi first.

He offer his hand for a hand shake. And the warmth of the palm, that i think im missing it now. He asked about my whereabouts and I was too updating on his whereabouts. Spontaneously, I offer his hand for a shake for his graduation recently. He knew im going to be posted in KK for 3 months for a practical from Aanhry. And i knew he is in SDK.

I then, was grabing all the watermelons whereas he was grabbing all the pineapples. Then, told him that I need to "prepare" my own dadih. So, I went away. And return to my seat. So as him.

Got up another time to get some ice cream. This time, when i pass by, he dint look up either.. Then, when we finally decide to go, he looked up, and ask if im leaving and i said "yea..".. and patted on his shoulder saying "take care".

That night was a remarkable one. What happened that night still lingered around my mind. Did I say something wrong [saying that I hope I dont wanna come back to SDK, without telling him the reason. But I told him Ill be in Sabah though. Have I said something wrong? Was my face so oily that can fry nuggets? {he said I dint changed although I insisted I was fatter and darker}.. Should I leave that fast for the dadih? Should I have try to talk more when he told me it was hard in working world? Should a word of attention given to him?Arghh...... I just dunno. But what I know is, he should know that im not mad at him at all. That's something to be pleased of myself.

However, nothing had changed after that night. Will my second wish come true once more?

Was this all alrite?

I keep on wondering, was what I did was correct?
I wonder if the decision made was right for myself?
I wonder how could I get rid of all these unwanted feelings.
I wonder and I wonder.
I wish I knew the answer.