Tuesday, October 11, 2011

No one will understand.

People see that im successful, earning lots, having lots of friends around and happily being posted at my hometown. But many of them really felt what i felt?

Never felt so lost. Never felt so rebellious. And i regreted the decision made a few months back. I have to admit, i asked for a retention because of him. But what happen in the end? I just felt im being used. Somehow, he did not realised it. And again, i realised, i was trying to be someone he might like. And in the end, i got hurt again, and putting a strong firm and happy face.

It really kills me. The feeling can never subside and no talkings can help to mend this feeling, except me leaving. How can i leave this place? I hate to say it, but im starting to hate it already...