Everyone needs a knock at times..

Is just amazing how friends can affect you.

Tonight, i felt extremely missing the time we had. So, i went out with a bunch of friends to play card games. When i sat at the table, it just flashed back the last time i was at this same restaurant, almost a year ago, with you. Having the same dessert, at the table in which last year, my hometown friends were questioning me about you, because they caught me going out alone with you.

I was trying hard to have some interest in the game, but yet, i felt so stupid cos i really felt irritated cos i keep asking friend again and again: What is this card for, why like this, why like that. Just felt am such a nuisance. I really pity that friend of mine, Superman.

However, Green page me at my phone when the game is almost done. Named her green, im sure she understood why i named her so. I met green unintentionally, and to be frank, it was a miracle & unexpected that i and her can grow such deep friendship. No one would guess that we both could be so great friends because all we had in common, was just another friend that used to be her housemate. I wouldnt have guessed that I will have an international friend, especially someone this close and dear to heart. To make it more beautiful, the last time I we had met, perhaps is at least 2-3 years ago! And we kept in touch, really once awhile, but we both knew each other will be backing each other up when we needed each other.

Green had a relationship that really NO ONE would ever think it will end that way. Green's story is almost like my past story. In short, a relationship were just a tool for both of us to grow, a relationship that we both had spent so much time grieving and hoping the man will return, a relationship that we both wanted it to work so much, a relationship that made us blank for quite sometime, a relationship that makes us cry first thing in the morning and the last thing before we slept, a relationship that made us felt we are so hypocrite being a happy bunny at daylight but when moon comes and alone, is totally a different personality, a relationship we had fought hard to make it work, to make it sustain, and to change the fact that he was gone. However, this PAST relationship, had just bear one great fruit, making us stronger and happier as we walked out of the shadow

Green and I havent been talking since 2 months ago, my birthday. It was our common friend birthday soon and she was asking me the exact date. We started to chat. Green read my blog. And we started to chat again.

2 months ago, green was negative. At some point, i was worrying if she can walk out of the misery like I did. I was worrying if she have a friend sitting by her, saying nothing, and when leaving, both feel is the greatest conversation.

Green surprise me when she was giving me strength to go on.

God is always here. He can give you everything, so as He can take it from you everything and anytime. We can plan, we can try and we can hope, but we can never go against God's will. Everything happens for a reason. We might not see for the time being, but absolutely, God is providing us ONLY THE BEST for us.

Both Green and I might not have a good past relationship, we asked God "Why me? Why so? and What have I done wrong to deserve this?". But now, we see the past relationship as a tool for us to grow and absolutely, not the right man after all. Cos we still deserve ONLY THE BEST.

To be honest, yes, I do miss Vince alot. Is hard to let go. I dont want to loose hope.. Maybe im not brave enough to let him go afterall. But one thing im sure after my conversation with Green, is not the RIGHT TIME and NOTHING can SURE. Why should we worry on things that is UNCERTAIN? Isnt it a waste of time? Isnt it making us miserable?

So, seize the time. God always answer prayers, just that maybe not at the time we expected. So, wait patiently. So, when you see the opportunity, dont waste it anymore (sillyly hoping september provides an opportunity.

Tonight too, i hope i had made superman remind himself what i remind myself today. Seize the opportunity. Believe in God. and God answers.

Thank you Green for reminding me how great is thou art. Thank you green for all the reminders. Thank you Green for the sharing. You definitely be in my prayer list. Love you, Green. God bless you abundantly too. God will lead us a way He wants us to be :D