Today's lunch is abit different, after receiving sms from Marchy. It just reflected to me that although Ive walked out from that pit hole, yet, there are tonnes of people just beside me, struggling for their exams as well as relationship problem.
Not this time, but yeah... there are couple of people that meant so much to me, have to juggle their feelings for exams as well as juggling their unpleasant feeling of what happened in their life especially in relationship.
I just felt that these people are just born to be stronger than others. Is like one feeling is telling u to walk on, but yet the past holds you tight, and it just make your tears fell. You are just struggling with the depression as well as the urge to prepare for the few papers you gonna face and not worth failing any one of it.
I just know how it felt, because i was being in it from STPM till this semester???? yea... was a long journey for me. Yet, after all these years, i really found the strength within that keep upholding me.
Yes, is painful to lose someone dear to you, but wouldnt it be more painful being with someone dear, yet his/her heart is no longer in?
Yes, is painful and you weeped because of what happened and why it happened, but wouldnt it be more painful if you wouldnt know how it felt to be hurt and learnt from it to be stronger in future?
Yes, is painful to see someone that once hurt you was out there jolly and you were there crying for the failed relationship, but wouldnt it be more painful if you just continue to dwell into it?
Yes, is painful to let someone go and be with someone they think they deserve more, but wouldnt it be more painful if you just keep holding on and never ever give someone else beside you a chance to be happy with you?
Is all comes to an end. We all know it. It just ended without us realising is coming near.
So what? We can never change what had happened and we could never turn back the time. What we can only do now is to use the remaining time we have in this world to enjoy what we should be enjoying. Life is all about ups and downs. We need both Sun and Rain to make the Rainbow.
To Marchy: I and You have gone too much. Walk too much than the rest till we cripple at times. We both know we can make it if we wanted to. Is time for you to make your decision whether to start something new or not. Is time for you to choose whether you wanna be happy of who and what you have done, or unhappy because of blaming yourself for such relationship that dint worked your way. Is up to you to choose. Im sorry I couldnt be there just like what you did for me. But i promise, we will able to make rainbows together in future if you willing to let go the past. There are this bunch of jimui back here, waiting to do the same with you.
To TT: I remember that I say I wanna see the smile on your face which is from the bottom of your heart. You can only do it by forgetting the past, and not by just saying it. And I hope to see it soon, real soon. Hope to see you change into someone of who you really are. Someone that is not only claimed to be a happy person because of a "happy" mask you wear but also hope to see "angry", "sad" and "satisfy" masks once awhile, provided is really from you.
To Henrina: You are just to young to ruin your life with such a man. Such a person that is no longer worth your smiles. You are young, and there are someone out there, which God have provide for you. Do not waste your life because of him. There are bigger fishes there. And even if this fish belongs to you, let it get fatter before it swims back to you to be eaten!
To Aanhry: I know you have fell and get up Again and AGAIN. You start to lose hope on people or on love. You start to refrain yourself from trusting others, and you start to be TOO strong for yourself. Do not let others change who you are. Instead, use urself influence others of what you are thinking and show them your existence! No one should be an underdog. Let them know how important you are!
To Octopy: Although the words just never come out from you, yet we all knew what happen. Im just too glad to hear that you are strong on your principle, and have move on with life. You showed us that life is not just evolving relationship, there are just too many things more beautiful than he is to be admired. [like anticipating presenting my whole birthday cake to me, in 2 weeks time :))))) ].
The rainbow is always there, when you never expect it. And that's God's promise to us that there will be a better future. Instead of holding to the past, might as well, just anticipate the future :)
Good luck everyone! *hugs hugs*
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